Amy Johnson

Day 3

Left this one late sorry mum, we came and visited today and whatever they’re giving you is definitely working.

You and dad discussed getting a dog so now he’s researching what breeds will be good for your allergies, I think it’ll be good for you when you’re better dad agrees.

You’ve given me another shopping list so I’ll do that today as you’re annoyed I won’t come visit today because I have 101 things to do but I know you’re not really annoyed it’s just your brains fried right now.

The hospital is in a lovely area and you’ve told us about all the different birds you’ve seen so far, you’ve made more friends and for someone who doesn’t like people that always surprises me.

I had to deal with my first blue flashing lights, was slightly scary when you’re going 50mph on windy country roads but I handled it well. I’m going to make coffee now and make a plan for the day. I’m sure we’ll speak soon

Day 2

You phoned the police at midnight so that was fun to wake up to, im not mad just sad your brain makes you feel this way. Was also a little funny the police didn’t believe the nurse that you’re in hospital and that I am in fact ok. At least you’re thinking of me again.

D went and looked round a college today, it went about as well as you thought it would but he’s accepted he needs to go.

K finally had the fillings done that we’ve waited ages for, she was very brave and didn’t have them numbed. I’m treating her to Taco Bell tonight.

S had her final swimming gala today, she came last but she absolutely smashed it and I know you’ll be proud of her.

We’re coming to see you tomorrow and bringing the list of things you asked for, I hope you’ll have taken your medication so that the voices are a little quieter for you. Me and dad are both missing you, he’s even started the painting you’ve been asking him to do. So we really need you to get better so he doesn’t have to finish the painting.

Day 1

Today was the day, after a long week where the days have merged into one long nightmare. the powers that be moved you to a secure place a place where they can try and fix whatever’s gone wrong in your brain

I’ve no idea if I’ll ever show you these or if you’ll ever be capable of reading them, it feels strange to dump my brain out onto a blog post but if I don’t I fear I may end up beside you on a special kind of holiday. But for now I’ll write them here and hopefully ease the chaos in my head.

Day 1:

Woke up with a feeling of something not quite right and well it’s definitely not right, you’re not here I can’t just pick the phone up and tell you about my day. Dads hanging on in there although your words cut deeper for him then they do for me (thank you teenage arguments) we spoke a few times on the phone though it’s no substitute when you just want to ramble about cake making and how 5 is driving me mad again. 1 is looking at a college tomorrow, he wasn’t impressed he found out the day before but you know what he’s like.

2 stayed home again today and I can see she isn’t herself and I don’t quite know how to help her through this when I can barely help myself

3&4 had after school club for the festival that’s next weekend, I really hope things are calmer then and we can bring you photos of their festival. They’ve worked so hard on their costumes and it brought back many memories of us working on festival costumes for the millennium event.

5 as usual is her happy little self although with some extra cling, she’s finally accepted that grandad lives in my phone but she still brings me my phone and says nanna phone.

I’m hanging in there, I finally did some food shopping and managed to forget toilets rolls, 1 called me an idiot, I even managed to get some washing on. Dad did washing too but no idea if he did it right so if everything has shrunk when you come home we know why. He’s taken to watching old western films while you’re away.

We wanted to see you today but you needed time to settle into your room and for the staff to get to know you, I know if feels like we abandoned you but it’s far from the truth. it’ll soon be Saturday though and me and Dad can come visit.